35 weeks

April 30, 2009

Well. It’s been quite an eventful few days.

On Tuesday, I had my first appointment with my midwife. I knew I was measuring big, but I was shocked when she said that my fundal height was 41 cm — and average for Biskit’s gestational age was 33 cm. The centimeter measurement of fundal height is roughly supposed to correspond to the week of your pregnancy. In other words, I was measuring at 41 weeks pregnant – a full six weeks, two days ahead.

Gulp.

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The midwife said that she wanted me to get another growth ultrasound done asap. I readily concurred, and was able to get an appointment at 4 p.m. yesterday.

I will just cut and paste from an email I sent yesterday:

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Biskit has shot through the roof in terms of growth in the last three weeks. At 32 weeks, she measured 4lb 2 oz – at 34w6d (today), she measures 7 lb, 3 oz. Given her extremely sudden growth spurt and some other factors, the doc is concerned that I’ve developed gestational diabetes, even though I passed my GD screen at the 26 week mark. So I will need to be screened again sometime in the next few days, and depending on how that turns out, might need more monitoring.

In any event, the docs want to follow me very closely the rest of this pregnancy, which means weekly ultrasound checks and biofeedback tests, in addition to my weekly appointments with my midwife. At this point, this pregnancy stands almost NO chance of lasting another 5 weeks, because at the rate she’s growing, she’d weigh over 12 pounds at term. It’s quite possible I’ll be having her sometime in the next two weeks.

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So. Yeah. She’s HUGE.

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I couldn’t fall asleep last night, thinking about what I must have done wrong. Sure, my family has big babies (I was near 9 pounds, myself), but 12 pounds (assuming she makes it to term)???? That’s some freaking Ripley’s Believe it or Not ish, and it’s my fault. I haven’t exactly stuck to that low-fat diet that my OB prescribed back in week 20-something; in fact, I’ve blown past the recommended weight gain for women who were UNDERweight before pregnancy, and I started off overweight to begin with. As Christian Bale would say, OHHHHHHHHHHH, GOOD FOR YOU.

Frankly, I feel horrible. My very first requirement as a mother was to do everything right to help my baby grow appropriately, and I feel like I fucked it up. I’ve grown a far-too-big baby, and I’ve let Biskit down. If it turns out that I do have GD after all, I will feel even worse — because the last thing I ever would have wanted for my sweet little girl was for her first few hours to be spent having her bloodsugar crash, and getting stuck with needles constantly. Babies whose mothers have GD are at a greater risk themselves for developing diabetes type I or II later in life, and are often obese. Just lovely, Lucy — way to go. Way to give your daughter the best kick off in life possible.

I’m sorry, sweetheart.

MAMA

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9 Responses to “35 weeks”

  1. ChiaLynn Says:

    I know I’m not going to talk you out of feeling bad for yourself, so I’ll just offer hugs. 🙂

  2. ChiaLynn Says:

    Argh. About yourself. Feeling bad ABOUT yourself.


  3. Thanks. And I knew what you meant. 🙂

    I know it’s not entirely rational for me to feel like such a fuck up over this, but I can’t shake the feeling off either.

  4. Phil Says:

    Baby biskit will be just fine.

    This is only further proof that it is, indeed, Bon’s love child. His wife had g.d. on all 3 kids. It’s not you. It’s Bon.

  5. mkd Says:

    *hug* You’ll feel bad no matter what I say. It is totally normal. I get what you are saying. But it will go away once you see her for the first time. It’s AWESOME.

  6. Lucy Says:

    Phil, why did you have to mention Bon’s wife? Why are you so mean? Have you no consideration for my feelings?

    MKD: I totally canNOT fucking wait to meet her. 😀

  7. sheburtsy Says:

    oh, poor sweetie! I’m certain that all the coming years of having you as her awesome mom will make up for any imperfections in the pregnancy.

  8. Lucy Says:

    Thanks, Sheburtsy.

    One thing that did make me feel better was talking to a woman in my office who gained 50 pounds with her own pregnancy — and ended up having a 5 lb, 9 oz full-term baby. So her weight gain didn’t have any correlation whatsoever with how big her baby turned out… which makes me feel better about my own. After all, Biskit has measured exactly on target (or even a couple of days behind) for this entire pregnancy up through week 32. If something has happened to affect her growth (like GD), it has JUST happened.

    Another thing that made me feel better was hearing at the ultrasound screen that she looks absolutely, wonderfully healthy. She was practicing her respiration while we were watching her — no problems at all. Heart looked great, digestion looked great, etc. She has tons of room to move around, too (I believe the words the tech used were “she has a swimming pool in there”). The excess amniotic fluid is itself a sign of GD, but hey — at least it means she’s not cramped!

  9. Lucy Says:

    OH — and we could even see the outlines of some spiky little hair on her head during the ultrasound! She totally had a little halo of peach fuzz. Awwwwwww.


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