Hellooooooooo, sweet thing

One of the strangest sensations I had with my 12-week ultrasound last week (and my first-trimester screen today – more on that in a moment*) was hard for me to place initially.

I felt a jolt of joy, a wave of relief (heartbeat still going strong!) and even a little smidgen of surprise, because even though I KNOW I’m pregnant, there’s still an element of “OH!” when I see my little one actually living and wiggling and bouncing around. But there was also something else, which I finally figured out today when I was laying on the ultrasound table. As the first pictures of my baby came on the screen, there was a shock of RECOGNITION that ran through me, because HELLO, my little sweetest heart! I KNOW you!!! And then — God. I’m not sure I can even describe it — just waves of love. Sweet Jesus gay, little baby — you’re still a good 27 weeks away from being born, but my LORD how I love you!

* And Baby, you amused me greatly with your antics during today’s ultrasound. You’d get your little feets planted on the wall of my uterus, bend your wee legs, and then SPROIIIIIIIIIIIING JUMP! and vault yourself into space. So what if it meant that it took 45 minutes for the ultrasound tech to get your measurements? That just meant more time for me to watch you and giggle.

(Happy sigh.)

Tomorrow’s Thanksgiving. I have so, so much to be thankful for.

- Mama
(12 weeks, 6 days)